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Choc Fudge Brownie tagged me : - tens

10 things I have never done

 

1.        Watched a scary movie from beginning to end without my eyes closed.

2.        Sung in the rain

3.        Had pizza & beer @ the same time

4.        Gone to Italy or the Maldives

5.        Touched or gone near a snake (shudders @ the thought)

6.        Tried body combat (Hhhhmmmmm…. A thought)

7.        Been on a date with a gal

8.        Seen or been up a tree house

9.        Actually fallen in love (proper)

10.     Been to a concert of my fav bands (Bon Jovi, Linkin Park, The Corrs, Maroon 5, Tiziano Ferro)

 

So there you have it people, The Ten Things I have not done. These things may change in coming times but it was fun just thinking about it…. J tens CFB

Here’s the game. Choose five occupations from the list below and fill in the blanks. If I tag you, you’re supposed to answer in your own weblog. If you don’t want to, let me know so I can tag someone else… I was tagged by The Claw ;)

If I could be a scientist...
If I could be a farmer...
If I could be a musician...
If I could be a doctor...
If I could be a painter...
If I could be a gardener...
If I could be a missionary...
If I could be a chef...
If I could be an architect...
If I could be a linguist...
If I could be a psychologist...
If I could be a librarian...
If I could be an athlete...
If I could be a lawyer...
If I could be an inn-keeper...
If I could be a professor...
If I could be a writer...
If I could be a llama-rider...
If I could be a bonnie pirate...
If I could be an astronaut...
If I could be a world famous blogger...
If I could be a justice on any one court in the world...
If I could be married to any current famous political figure...

 

Here are my answers:

 

If I could be a writer... I would write a great story about love & friendship & without a clear cut ending so that you could create your own ;)

 

If I could be a chef... I would create an endless line of yummilicious food to fill the tum tums of my friends so that they will be happy J & for the celebrities then I can earn a ton of money & travel constantly & own a private island J

 

 

 

If I could be a psychologist... I will help people solve the turmoil within themselves so that the world will smile again… plus it will be fun to maybe see the webs in peoples head

 

 

If I could be a lawyer... I will fight and win all my cases & not feel quilty about the bad ones

 

 

If I could be an inn-keeper... I will find a nice spot & do up the place to be warm, cozy & welcoming. I will serve pipping hot breakfast & drive guests around town for the day. They will also get a serving of milk & cookies before they sleep.

 

 

 

This was fun, thanks sharkbait, I made believe for a while & I was a happy gal J

Why are you so damn stubborn, ignorant, dense & irresponsible?

Help me to help you.

When it comes to things like this, you don’t make your own rules; you follow the ones that have been given to you. Period.

I have a job, look after myself & my family like the rest of humanity. If you think that you have it harder, take a look around you & try smelling other people’s flowers then you tell me.

 

While I am in the loo at work, I chance upon my colleague in there and gasp…. She makes the one comment which I don’t always like to hear… “you have a good figure actually”. Don’t get me wrong, I am a gal and I love to hear compliments and this was a compliment. I was polite & I said “oh thank you”.  

 

But when I came out of the cubicle, I actually started ranting. But before you all go about dissing me & saying “what is wrong with you woman” hear me out. CFB, not too long ago said in an entry about how the only thing that seems to matter to guys is a gal’s size. On this comment, I beg to differ.

 

That is an excuse. Size is an easy target because it may seem like nothing to them, however they know the effect of which that comment would have on a girl. It’s an excuse that they may  use to buy time maybe or skive from making a commitment. I posed this question back to her: so if size really is their main concern, then what is wrong with me. I am of a smaller size (I still have issues with my body) but I haven’t had guys falling or clamoring all over me. So what is the excuse this time – I guess I’m not as good looking as the many other women out there.

 

I hereby would like to make it clear that size does not matter & to all those people who think or say that I should have no guy problems or I don’t understand their plight because I’ m smaller then please prove it to me.

So it was a lazy Monday evening and after doing all the chores at home and having a shower, I just crashed in front of the television… And they were showing a documentary on Rome and for that whole hour, I was watching intently and at the same time in my own world, thinking what it would be like to be there and to soak up some of the Italian sun. And it wouldn’t just be Rome I’d want to visit, but Venice, Tuscany & Milan… But if its too expensive then I’d choose just one place…. But I wanna go…

 

Now all I want to do is to pack my bags and move to Italy. Hhhhhhhmmmmmmm maybe I’ll go there for a holiday J

 

There are so many things that I want to achieve in life. Many of which may not be fulfilled, but the one thing that I want to do most is to make a difference in the lives of people, young & old, near & far, family & friends. I see so much suffering & sadness (even in my life sometimes) that it makes me think, what is the use of living if you are going to be so miserable? But I’ve come to realize that these people were not put on this earth to lead this arduous life. Many of them were left to be alone, to fend for themselves, with no one to watch their back.

I want to make a difference, I want to watch your back & catch you when you fall, I want to be able to make you smile again & wipe all your tears away & tell you that whatever happens you have a friend in me, always.

 

This is for those who have given me reason to smile, who have wiped my tears, watched my back & caught me when I was about to fall. Know that all of it hasn’t gone unnoticed. I want to be able to share what I have learnt by experiences that others have shared with me.

 

For this I say Thank You!

 

Because I love this song :)
& I think each of us may relate to this song in one way or another...
if not just enjoy :)
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Now it seems to me,
That you know just what to say
But words are only words,
Can you show me something else?
Can you swear to me,
That you'll always be this way
Show me how you feel,
More than ever baby

I don't wanna be lonely no more,
I don't wanna have to pay for this,
I don't wanna know the lover at my door,
Is just another heartache on my list
I don't wanna be angry no more,
But you know I could never stand for this,
So when you tell me that you love me know for sure,
I don't wanna be lonely any more

Now It's hard for me,
When my heart still on your mend,
Open up to me,
Like you do your girlfriends
You sing to me,
And it's harmony,
Girl what you do to me is everything,
Make me say anything,
Just to get you back again,
Why can't we just try?

I don't wanna be lonely no more,
I don't wanna have to pay for this,
I don't wanna know the lover at my door,
Is just another heartache on my list
I don't wanna be angry no more,
But you know I could never stand for this,
So when you tell me that you love me know for sure,
I don't wanna be lonely any more

What if I was good to you?
What if you were good to me?
What if I could hold you till I feel you move inside of me?

What if it was paradise?
And what if we were symphonies?
What if I gave all my life,
to find some way to stand beside you?

I don't wanna be lonely no more,
I don't wanna have to pay for this,
I don't wanna know the lover at my door,
Is just another heartache on my list
I don't wanna be angry no more,
But you know I could never stand for this,
So when you tell me that you love me know for sure,
I don't wanna be lonely any more

I don't wanna be lonely any more
I don't wanna be lonely no more (x2)
I don't, I don't, I know, I know,

Rob Thomas :- "Lonely No More"

In the middle of a Sunday afternoon, as my mobile phone rings and I reach to answer it, I realize that it wasn’t a local number. I spent at least 5 seconds trying to figure out which country it was from, but to no avail. I answered it and this was what followed thereafter: -

 

PP: Hello

 

On the other end: Hello PP, Remember me? Kim, we met about 2 and a half years back.

 

PP: (Quiet for a moment) oh right right Kim

 

Kim: Is this a good time

 

PP: Yup, how you doing?

 

Before I had time to register anything else in my mind, I heard sobbing. My heart dipped to the lowest pit of my stomach. This is a person I met one evening but we never corresponded after that. I kept in regular contact with her friend(she was such a sweet person), not her(she was confident in an arrogant way), but here she was, on the other end of the line, sobbing uncontrollably now & I didn’t know what to say.

 

I told her not to worry, to take her time to tell me what was wrong, if she was alright. After about a minute, she managed to compose herself. She said I’m sorry I wasn’t nice to you that time I met you, & when you returned home and you sent that email to us, I never replied you. I said oh my god, don’t think anything of it. She then proceeded to tell me what had happened. “I’ve lost everything I’ve believed in & lived for” & “I’m made to believe that I’m an insider while everything that they do makes me feel like an outsider”

 

Her parent’s paid for her education overseas, but recently she realized that they thought it was a “silly” profession to get into. It wasn’t serious & she would never be able to make a proper living for herself, not like the other members in her family & she didn’t have a reputable & respectable” profession to craft a future for herself. Then why say nothing then & agree to pay for it.

 

She found out that her boyfriend was cheating on her and she actually thought he was going to propose and marry her. She thinks that if she didn’t find out, he would have proposed, but would have continued with the affair. Why not just dump me so that I can cry then get on with my life.

 

When she was away, she kept in constant touch with her friends back home. She was so happy coming home to spend time with them again. They were the “it” group, partied every Friday & Saturday without fail, did everything together. After awhile she felt she was drifting. It didn’t feel right. They would still party every weekend, sadly that was it. They would whisper in front of her & she asked what was up but they always said it was nothing. They wanted to know everything that was happening in her life, but never told her what was happening in theirs. She spoke about it with them, asked them if there was something wrong but they always said that she was imagining things. She heard them saying things about her, knew that they were saying things behind her back.

 

I used to be a part of this group, I know how they work, I know that what they say may not be what they mean. I have been that “it gal” that everyone looked up to. I never used to think about how the other felt when I used to say these things. Now I understand how empty you feel. Truth is, there is no need to try to explain this feeling to anyone, coz the only time they will understand is when they go though it and feel that emptiness. Now when they have got someone else or a group of other people it will be so hard to understand.

 

“I’ve lost everything I’ve believed in & lived for” & “I’m made to believe that I’m an insider while everything that they do makes me feel like an outsider”

 

I need to get away from everyone. I need to start my life anew. Start from scratch & build a new life for myself somewhere else. I’m going back. I’m sorry if after this call you may not hear from me for awhile. It will be painful because you will be a link to my past. I just need to get a grip of my life before I totally loose my mind. I just needed to make peace with the past I had left.

Thank you for being you and for listening to me when you had no reason to. You have no idea what that this conversation has done for me. Take care of yourself and never stop believing in yourself, even when others loose belief in you.

 

There were tears in my eyes as I bade her farewell & wished her luck. I could not understand how she could do it. I just knew from her tone of voice that it was something she needed to do to save herself & her sanity.

 

To you, I say Good Luck & I thank you for sharing with me your fears & the magnitude of strength a person has to chase their dreams & why it is important to keep who you are. My prayers will always be with you.