http://fortheheckofit.blogdrive.com/ So Shoot Me Sun, 26 Feb 2006 12:25:22 PST http://www.blogdrive.com Copyright 2006. Entertainment Movies Music http://fortheheckofit.blogdrive.com/archive/121.html Sun, 26 Feb 2006 05:55:02 GMT Why play pretend....it's right under my nose & I see it.... So what do I do? Nothing...Absolutely nothing, because its my fault (it always is after all) & what else is there left to do? I try, so help me God I try so hard sometimes...maybe that's my problem (I try not to ruffle too many feathers but it backfires in my face) But to make it seem like i'm not doing anything to make it better (or to at least try) that breaks my heart....Because I do, more than ever... & When I try, I get nothing back All I want is to see the rainbow again, I think thats not too much to ask for... (more) http://fortheheckofit.blogdrive.com/comments?id=121 http://fortheheckofit.blogdrive.com/archive/120.html Thu, 29 Dec 2005 10:21:21 GMT Oh my Gawd, its been sooo long that I forgot how to work this thing...like jakun lah I tell you.... Anyway, just so you know, & its about bloody time, I have finally got a computer in my room. No more waitng for my bro to get of the computer or finish studying or sleeping or anything else. I missed having it in my room. Think the last time I had it here was like 10 years ago. I wonder actually if my site is still active coz I just see a blank page so we'll see after I try & post this up. Christmas has once again come & gone... Yesterday I found that the city had started... (more) http://fortheheckofit.blogdrive.com/comments?id=120 http://fortheheckofit.blogdrive.com/archive/119.html Sat, 30 Jul 2005 06:14:20 GMT WOW!! its been ages.... & I never realised how long till today I managed to use CFB's computer to check out all the sites. I have been missing in action due to the fact that I have been switched to a new dept (same room though) and a new table. I can't use the internet on my comp to prevent viruses & stuff. I didnt realise how much I missed it till today. I miss writing randomly and reading all life stories but oh well nothing much I can do abt it. So much has been happening, Too many thoughts floating around in my head. Thoughts which i dont want to voice out because then... (more) http://fortheheckofit.blogdrive.com/comments?id=119 http://fortheheckofit.blogdrive.com/archive/118.html Mon, 27 Jun 2005 04:15:55 GMT I hate feeling needy I hate knowing that I constantly starve for affection I hate feeling that I need to give 150% to prove myself to others I hate feeling that I will never be good enough for anybody I hate feeling guilty for everything that happens I hate the fact that I can never have enough shoes & bags I hate thinking all the time and dissecting every piece of information when its actually simple & straightforward I hate that I tend to get paranoid about stuff I hate the fact that I have been working in the same place for 2 ˝ yrs & I hate it I hate the fact that I’m... (more) http://fortheheckofit.blogdrive.com/comments?id=118 http://fortheheckofit.blogdrive.com/archive/117.html Mon, 27 Jun 2005 03:55:23 GMT So many things happening all at once…I want to help to make things better but I don’t how….I feel helpless & I hate feeling this way….I want to make everything right for everybody so that all the faces I see when I wake up in the morning & all the faces I see when I go to sleep at night will have smiles….the different kinds of smiles which I have come to know so well…. I may not be the easiest person to talk to but I care & I hope that it carries at least abit of weight http://fortheheckofit.blogdrive.com/comments?id=117 http://fortheheckofit.blogdrive.com/archive/116.html Sat, 18 Jun 2005 04:52:04 GMT (Before I start, let me warn you that this entry might sound a bit bimbotic / crazy maybe to some of you so apologies in advance to anyone who might get turned off by it) Ok its 11:30am on a Saturday morning, I’m sitting at my desk at work and I find myself singing & humming to an Italian CD (Tiziano Ferro)J Plus there is an Italian Fair going on downstairs where we work and besides loving the food and the beauty of the country, almost everyone I know, knows that I have a thing for Italian Guys. Why? They are hot, suave and charming…. & I also think their twang is so cute. I... (more) http://fortheheckofit.blogdrive.com/comments?id=116 http://fortheheckofit.blogdrive.com/archive/115.html Fri, 17 Jun 2005 04:28:17 GMT When u want something….. you wait till u get it….you get it…. then the rug has to be pulled out from under u….coz its just not good enough…….and ur left alone again http://fortheheckofit.blogdrive.com/comments?id=115 http://fortheheckofit.blogdrive.com/archive/114.html Mon, 13 Jun 2005 09:03:10 GMT So the weekend turned out a little unexpected but on hindsight maybe not…. Sat was a bummer coz I didn’t do anything except sleep. I had to work in the morning (which I find is the most unproductive thing) & reached home at abt 3:30pm. I went to sleep almost immediately coz my body was just loosing its lustre and I awoke an hour and a half later only to fall back to sleep again while watching tv. Abit of drama took place later but for my own sanity will leave that out of here. Felt really crappy (sick) so didn’t meet the rest (& WAP met them that night - dammit). So after watching... (more) http://fortheheckofit.blogdrive.com/comments?id=114 http://fortheheckofit.blogdrive.com/archive/113.html Sat, 11 Jun 2005 06:41:46 GMT What a Friday yesterday was. Since we didn’t have anything in particular to do and we all just wanted to “hang” for the evening, we made arrangements to meet in town after 6pm. LMM finished work at 5pm so she went home to change first before coming down. Both me & CFB finished work at 6pm so we waited outside our office (as it is conveniently located in the town area – sorry bout that to the rest J) Sharkbait left work at about 6pm (she didn’t want to meet us at first but was made to change her mind – I’m glad u came down J). So LMM & Sharky met us at about 7pm. As usual, it took... (more) http://fortheheckofit.blogdrive.com/comments?id=113 http://fortheheckofit.blogdrive.com/archive/112.html Thu, 02 Jun 2005 06:56:52 GMT This entry comes with a mixture of many things: apologies, gratitude, awe, admiration, & TLC I had written an entry a couple of months ago but it didn’t post, maybe it was a sign to wait for the right time Now seems perfect timing so allow me the opportunity to pour my heart, soul & mind out This is a tribute to the people that I have gotten to know in the past 10 years (at different points within those years) But whom I have had an opportunity to really see, hear, understand & have come to love and who have made an incredible impact in my life. Last year, I had a roller... (more) http://fortheheckofit.blogdrive.com/comments?id=112